loss.
it's something that everyone feels at some point in their lives.
never nice or friendly. impacting life in both a negative and positive way.
about 4 months ago, i experienced an incredible loss.
my friend and someone i loved, died.
he got a gun and killed himself. no signs, no inkling. no hints to his feelings that he was considering this. to this day, i cannot comprehend that he is gone and in the ground. a place i can no longer hug him or hear him laugh or see him dance. it hurts. a lot. what else can i say?
angry? absolutely. confused? most definitely. never will i see him smile again.
he was an amazing person. at camp, i'd call him a diamond in the ruff. one of those people you see arrive at camp, and you think to yourself.... nah, won't make it through the summer. well, he made it through 3. i saw him grow and become a man that put others before himself. a man who loved unconditionally. he was beautiful from the inside out, and the world will never know him again.
i. will never know him again.
and it sucks.
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